when your mind is at war, it drives rationality out. it allows discord... it provides an environment for chaos to thrive.
i've followed a set course of actions... almost predictable... of constant evaluation, presumptions, and eventually... destruction.
i am usually able to forsee the eventualities that lie ahead. but i can't change them. and that's the disconcerting part. because it's like driving down the road, knowing five minutes before it happens... that you're going to be in a horrific car crash. and knowing that there is no way to stop it.
i assume one of two probabilities. one... i'll either crash... or two... i'll find a way to change my mind so as to find a way through... to get through unscathed.
i hope things change. i hope i change. because when you're surrounded by chaos, it's impossible to see a way out.
i've followed a set course of actions... almost predictable... of constant evaluation, presumptions, and eventually... destruction.
i am usually able to forsee the eventualities that lie ahead. but i can't change them. and that's the disconcerting part. because it's like driving down the road, knowing five minutes before it happens... that you're going to be in a horrific car crash. and knowing that there is no way to stop it.
i assume one of two probabilities. one... i'll either crash... or two... i'll find a way to change my mind so as to find a way through... to get through unscathed.
i hope things change. i hope i change. because when you're surrounded by chaos, it's impossible to see a way out.
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