been coming up with new ideas to write about. nothing concrete but i'm thinking about things. a friend suggested i publish this blog as a sort of "diary of a bipolar individual." i've been thinking about it...
losing weight... it's slow some days, fast others. i can see a change nearly every day. can't get better than that.
sorry if i've been mia. got sick from my little girl so i've been just about bed ridden. today was the first day i was able to get out and do something.
on the waiting list for three different apartments. 114 is the lowest i'm placed at on one of them. i've heard they move quickly though so i've got high hopes. not in a hurry to move out. but it'll be nice to have my own place.
tabs are expired so i can't drive anywhere except emissions when i finally get my oil changed and then the dol to get new tabs. then i'll be road bound again.
caught up on four episodes of rescue me last night (i kind of let them collect on me). i'm pretty sure i caught the season finale. it was incredible. spoiler warning below...
so tommy's wife finally filed for divorce, teddy's wife got killed in a drunk driving accident, tommy handcuffed sheila to a bed and left her there, then kidnapped his daughter katie to get back at his wife for the divorce. after all that he was in the bar with a bunch of the fdny guys and his family and his uncle teddy came in blaming himself for his wife's death. but he couldn't kill himself. so he shot tommy twice and pulled out a second gun telling everyone in the bar to throw their cell phones on the bar and threatened them if they went for help. turns out he also blamed tommy for his wife's death. he said they were all going to sit and watch tommy bleed to death.
so yeah... pretty sure that was the finale. lol
i'm fairly content despite shivering and having a sore throat. sleeping is pretty much impossible. but i'm happy. and although it may be elusive most days i'm glad to have pinned it down. it gives me hope... hope to get through the day. hope for tomorrow. hope that everything's going to be alright.
i have no doubt that everything's going to be alright. i've got some pretty good friends. some who've been there for ages. some who i've only just met. some i could talk to about anything. some who would show up at a moment's notice if i needed them.
life's pretty damn good.
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