i tried to be a strong father. a good man. i put you first and foremost even when others said to put myself first. this mentality will never change.
i was there crying when we almost lost you. next to your mother the entire time. i felt like i was going to explode with emotions... happy and sad... scared and glad... but i did my best to be a strong father.
words truly couldn't explain the way i felt when i saw you. and i've always had the words for any given situation. you were perfect. you are perfect.
the scariest thing for any father to do is let go. to know when to fight and when to let fate take over. as the best father i consider myself to be, despite what i'm going through and what i'll continue to go through... i have to be strong.
for you. because like many people say... you'll need to know your father.
words and stories... fall short.
maybe you'll love me. maybe you'll hate me. maybe you'll wonder why things ended up the way they did. maybe you'll blame me.
in the end these are just concerns without reasons.... just worries without foundations...
i can't know what the future holds... i can't control your present and i can't change the past.
know all i do is for you. from a distance. and when i see you.
just remember life is always worth figuring out. there is no one answer... there are infinite possibilities. we'll figure ours out together.
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