mentally i've been all over the board. falling in love with past relationships. yearning for those who have come and gone. realization dictated i'm more content to just wander aimlessly (more or less).
that's where i'm at today. trying to figure out if being content is enough. i see people around me making relationships work. i see others whose union has come to an end. yet optomism reigns supreme in these cases. very soon those who couldn't make it with one person will find another. i've seen it. it's no surprise.
it's interesting how being with someone makes us feel. ecstatic. fulfilled. safe. capable. life really tends to light up when you're experiencing it with someone else.
i've heard it said that man wasn't meant to be alone. i believe this. but i don't know that i'm ready to acknowledge that i'm ready to move on. and i'm not holding onto the past anymore. i'm just... content. content that i'm where i am. i've got a beautiful little girl who's learning to walk. between her fascination of all things noisy and ben ten she always brings a smile to my face.
love is complicated. worth it... but still complicated. i'm at a point in my life where i'm happy to see those around me making love work for them. friends and family. but i'm not sure i want to indulge in it myself.
that's where i'm at today. trying to figure out if being content is enough. i see people around me making relationships work. i see others whose union has come to an end. yet optomism reigns supreme in these cases. very soon those who couldn't make it with one person will find another. i've seen it. it's no surprise.
it's interesting how being with someone makes us feel. ecstatic. fulfilled. safe. capable. life really tends to light up when you're experiencing it with someone else.
i've heard it said that man wasn't meant to be alone. i believe this. but i don't know that i'm ready to acknowledge that i'm ready to move on. and i'm not holding onto the past anymore. i'm just... content. content that i'm where i am. i've got a beautiful little girl who's learning to walk. between her fascination of all things noisy and ben ten she always brings a smile to my face.
love is complicated. worth it... but still complicated. i'm at a point in my life where i'm happy to see those around me making love work for them. friends and family. but i'm not sure i want to indulge in it myself.
there was rarely a break between relationships for me. i was always with someone. i defined myself by that fact. and because of that it's taken me a long time to just be happy alone. there are things i miss. things i still think about... sure. but i'm finally at peace.
someday i may find the one. a single girl who rocks my world and brings amazing things to the table. i look forward to that day.
in the meantime i've got a little girl. a career in writing. friends to cure my boredom whenever it should strike. family that's there day or night. its a pretty cool place to be.
someday i may find the one. a single girl who rocks my world and brings amazing things to the table. i look forward to that day.
in the meantime i've got a little girl. a career in writing. friends to cure my boredom whenever it should strike. family that's there day or night. its a pretty cool place to be.
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