i'm just going to free write here... so it's going to be a little scattered i'm sure. just a bunch of ideas and thoughts strewn together. because in my head that's what they're like. cluttered and bunched together.
it's getting closer to the time where i'll have my own place. i've never lived completely alone before. i've always had a roommate (whether it be a friend or girlfriend) so it will be a new experience. most of the time i'm excited about the prospect. sometimes i know it'll get a little on the lonely side. i'll probably need to get some new tv series on dvd *smiles* ncis and rescue me, you're first on the list. i'm looking forward to setting up the place in a way that i'll like. i know i want to have a bar like area with a guinness theme. i used to have a couple of bar stools and a light up sign but i may have lost those in the divorce. ha ha... i'll have to ask elyse about that...
i've never done low income housing but i know sometimes there's a waiting list so i'll probably start searching for a place come september. by that time i should know what i'm getting from SSI and i'll be able to successfully budget. i've honestly gotten quite good at living off a little bit of money. once i cut out fast food completely i'll save even more money. seriously... fast food can get expensive. plus they say it's not healthy for you. i know crazy right? ha ha...
i know i'm probably going to have a one bedroom place so i'm going to make a lot of room available for when lily gets older. on the weekends when i have her i'm going to let her sleep in there and i'll take the couch. i guess that means my room is going to be filled with pink toys and stuffed animals everywhere...lol i'll be getting a toybox.
it's getting closer to the time where i'll have my own place. i've never lived completely alone before. i've always had a roommate (whether it be a friend or girlfriend) so it will be a new experience. most of the time i'm excited about the prospect. sometimes i know it'll get a little on the lonely side. i'll probably need to get some new tv series on dvd *smiles* ncis and rescue me, you're first on the list. i'm looking forward to setting up the place in a way that i'll like. i know i want to have a bar like area with a guinness theme. i used to have a couple of bar stools and a light up sign but i may have lost those in the divorce. ha ha... i'll have to ask elyse about that...
i've never done low income housing but i know sometimes there's a waiting list so i'll probably start searching for a place come september. by that time i should know what i'm getting from SSI and i'll be able to successfully budget. i've honestly gotten quite good at living off a little bit of money. once i cut out fast food completely i'll save even more money. seriously... fast food can get expensive. plus they say it's not healthy for you. i know crazy right? ha ha...
i know i'm probably going to have a one bedroom place so i'm going to make a lot of room available for when lily gets older. on the weekends when i have her i'm going to let her sleep in there and i'll take the couch. i guess that means my room is going to be filled with pink toys and stuffed animals everywhere...lol i'll be getting a toybox.
i'm looking forward to having more space for my junk. also in collecting cartoon series for my daughter. first on the list? aladdin! then spongebob i suppose. she seems to like him. then elyse said she likes beauty and the beast. i'll probably get all the disney princess movies for her. when they come out on dvd again. god damn disney vault.
my cable is acting up. i'm staring at a blank screen with a message that says one moment please, this channel should be available shortly. that was ten minutes ago. i'd call tech support but i don't really care at this hour... i'm sure someone's just crashed into the tower they use to broadcast with.
so i've been thinking about love lately. my failed relationships. recent dates that didn't really lead to anything serious. failed dates that were either monumental wastes of time or with girls completely bizarre and crazy. i'd like to find a normal, funny, sweet girl. i suppose i compare them all to the same ex which is a problem. but that's where i was happiest and if they can't compare to her... well then, it's not really worth pursuing a relationship.
my relationship with the ex wife is pretty excellent. we talk about lily, the different things she's doing, what she may or may not need that i can get. as her father i wish i could get her a lot more.
i'm actually pretty happy right now. my life doesn't seem that bad. i mean, social security will help me give lily the child support she deserves as well as a place of our own. i'll have my own space to live in. my medical's taken care of. despite the fact that i can't work i've got a lot to be happy about. my biggest thing is just making my daughter proud of me. that's what i want most out of the entire world.
still nothing on the cable box. absolutely ridiculous...ok forty minutes is not shortly. just say this channel will be available a later date... cus at this rate it's gonna be a while
went up to see zachary yesterday. we got him a little balloon and a blue and white dog stuffed animal. we also let a balloon go. i guess that's what shauna always let evan do. it's hard going up there. i know losing zachary was hard on shauna and jeremy.
the zephyr song by red hot chili peppers is playing... damn this is a good song. seriously i fucking love pandora.com
gotta get a blood test sometime this week. i freaking hate needles. it seems so archaic a practice. as i told alexis... she's going to learn how to stab people. cus that's what you're doing. stabbing people. but i suppose it does save lives...
well this is definitely long enough. i can probably go a month without writing a blog. maybe two. ha... take care all.
my cable is acting up. i'm staring at a blank screen with a message that says one moment please, this channel should be available shortly. that was ten minutes ago. i'd call tech support but i don't really care at this hour... i'm sure someone's just crashed into the tower they use to broadcast with.
so i've been thinking about love lately. my failed relationships. recent dates that didn't really lead to anything serious. failed dates that were either monumental wastes of time or with girls completely bizarre and crazy. i'd like to find a normal, funny, sweet girl. i suppose i compare them all to the same ex which is a problem. but that's where i was happiest and if they can't compare to her... well then, it's not really worth pursuing a relationship.
my relationship with the ex wife is pretty excellent. we talk about lily, the different things she's doing, what she may or may not need that i can get. as her father i wish i could get her a lot more.
i'm actually pretty happy right now. my life doesn't seem that bad. i mean, social security will help me give lily the child support she deserves as well as a place of our own. i'll have my own space to live in. my medical's taken care of. despite the fact that i can't work i've got a lot to be happy about. my biggest thing is just making my daughter proud of me. that's what i want most out of the entire world.
still nothing on the cable box. absolutely ridiculous...ok forty minutes is not shortly. just say this channel will be available a later date... cus at this rate it's gonna be a while
went up to see zachary yesterday. we got him a little balloon and a blue and white dog stuffed animal. we also let a balloon go. i guess that's what shauna always let evan do. it's hard going up there. i know losing zachary was hard on shauna and jeremy.
the zephyr song by red hot chili peppers is playing... damn this is a good song. seriously i fucking love pandora.com
gotta get a blood test sometime this week. i freaking hate needles. it seems so archaic a practice. as i told alexis... she's going to learn how to stab people. cus that's what you're doing. stabbing people. but i suppose it does save lives...
well this is definitely long enough. i can probably go a month without writing a blog. maybe two. ha... take care all.
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